I will never complain again...

As I am hitting the two week mark in the hospital I am getting very ancy. I stare at walls all day while being hooked up to IV's, given 2 shots a day of blood thinners and I have seemed to have blown every vein in my arms. I am better off than some women here in the Antepartum Dept.  There is a girl across the hall who I have not seen, but have been told has been here since this summer and is also pregnant around the same time as me with twins.  She cannot get up to go to the bathroom, cannot bathe herself, has to lay constantly in a position where her legs are higher than her head. I almost cried when I was told of her situation.

Things could always be worse. I am sitting here crying because I have been here for two weeks and hate needles. At least I can get up and shower when I want and use the bathroom and I can get up and stretch my legs. I feel terrible for this poor girl, but it seems she has made the decision that she is going to do what she has to do to get her babies here safely even if that means laying practically upside down, going to the bathroom in a bed pan where people have to clean you up and give you sponge baths in bed. 

I have so much to be grateful for right now. I will deal with my two shots a day and painful IV's everyday. I will deal with an uncomfortable bed and cords and wires attached.  I will deal with not being home with my husband and dogs. I will deal with the 8 channels I have on my little tv.  There is so many things in life that can be worse. I just keep reminding myself that in around six weeks I will have two beautiful lives that I will be able to take care of outside of a bed, without needles and cords and who cares about a comfortable bed because I will be getting very little sleep to even enjoy it.  

I thank God every day that he has blessed us with not only the chance for another set of twins, but twin boys.  I never would have dreamed I would have been given a second chance to do it all over again and successfully. I thank God for a husband that loves me more than life itself and never fails to show that to me or anyone else.  I thank God for his job that has given him the necessary time off to take care of things at home and running back and forth with me. I thank God for the wonderful spouses of Fort Wadsworth that are planning a meal train starting next week to help Mike out so he doesn't have to worry about cooking for himself. I thank God for the people in my life that are keeping us afloat with thoughts and prayers. You all truly have no idea how much it means to us. We have felt every single prayer and that is what is keeping us from falling.  

Everyone has a breaking point. I am very close, but until you open your eyes and realize things could always be worse, I will make it through.  I see that beautiful light at the end of the tunnel :)

Thanks again for checking in, 

Shannon

Updated Pics of the belly!

some of you have asked for a belly shot. Please don't mind the no makeup and messy bed.  The one photo is of my one arm and it didn't show up as bad on camera than it does in person but gives you an idea of my arm :(

they say these weeks i will prob get a lot bigger. I can't imagine getting bigger, but I know it is def possible!! I swear the one pic you can see a baby outline above the monitor...lol. 

New update...29w4d

Saw doctor Kofinas this morning and baby A (Mason's) fluid is half of what Maddox's is. It is not dangerously low, but low enough to have to be monitored.  Cervix is up from a 2.5 to a 2.8 so that is good. I was off IV for about 4 hours yesterday and my contractions went from sporadic to regular so that has to be constant.

Dr. Kofinas said it is best to stay til at least 32 weeks bc at that point brain bleeds are almost 0% statistically. So, if we really really want to go home it will be safe to do homecare after that point. Our OB was saying that 34 weeks is prob a better estimation bc you are looking at pratically full term or very close to it.  The thing is that after 32 weeks we can't be given anything to stop the labor. We will be working on Homecare for 32 weeks as long as everything else is good. This will require someone coming to the house a few times a day to monitor vitals and change out fluids etc...

I am going batty and miss my home, but I will do anything if it means keeping these babies in as long as possible. Mike and I have our countdown...32 weeks is December 20th so we could possibly be home for Christmas. If we have to go to 34 weeks than it will be between Jan 3-10th. Our goal is to have these babies and take them home and hopefully no NICU time. 

Every day is a day closer!! They are so active too :) I can sit here and watch my belly shift in certain areas and it is just amazing...They are so strong! Maddox has made my right rib his home an makes it very hard to sit up for long periods of time. mason is very low and has the hiccups quite often...lol.

 I think it is time to invest in those cute maternity gowns:)

Thanks for reading!!

Shannon