Thursday, September 5, 2013

In the life of one on "rest"

Bed rest chronicles Day 2

Well, it has been two days on rest. I will admit it I do get up to empty the dishwasher, shower, vacuum, tiny bit of cooking but then it is right back to the recliner. I have been told to drink a gallon of water a day and let me just tell you that it is very hard to maintain rest when you have to pee every 15 min.  The puggles don't seem to mind I am on bed rest. I think in their little puggle brains it reassures them that it is indeed ok to sleep 18 out of the 24 hour day and not feel guilty. 

One thing that is very hard to deal with is my attention span is that of a fruit fly and finding ways to keep busy is hard. I try to break up my day how I used to do it at work. I break up the day into hours. Wake up at 8am and from 8-9 eat breakfast, browse FB, check email, watch the today show. 9am-10am maybe some candy crush until it tells me that I have to wait another 15 min before I can make another attempt at completing the level which, if you play, know how torturous that is!  Browse Pinterest to see what is "hip" these days and pin hundreds of recipes I will probably never make. Realize that Pinterest made me hungry and grab a snack on the way back from my third potty break since I woke up. 

At 10am I try to watch Hoda and Kathy Lee but start to realize my brain cells are diminishing from the pointless crap they mention on their show. 11am I watch the view which hurts my brain even more because it is nothing but five women talking at the same time and trying to get their opinions out before the next commercial, so I am prob attempting another shot at Candy Crush.

Noon I start to scavenge for lunch. Sandwich, leftovers, cereal this could be a very hard decision for the day. Lately it has been turkey and cheese on a Kaiser roll with kettle cooked potato chips IN the sandwich and a nice glass of milk. Back to the recliner...look out the window...see that the news has taken over and one can only take so much torture in the world so I scan the channel for some other program that probably has some rich person complaining of the problems in their life. I do believe yesterday I fought the temptation but put on the Kardashians and it was the episode of wanting to cook the placenta and feed it to the family members as a surprise and I quickly learned that my poor children will never have good old fashioned TV sitcoms the way we did growing up and that in itself, is a very sad sad concept to grasp.  

I find that from 1-3pm is the hardest. I have hit my limit of sitting in the recliner and peeing every 15 min so I attempt to crochet my blanket. I can't even tell you how many times I get going and get about 1/4 through it and realize I messed up somewhere and have to start from the beginning!! This is almost as frustrating as candy crush! :)

Mike comes home and I am sure I stare at him like a dog that just seen his owner after being left home in a crate all day. I begin to interrogate him about his day and want to know everything that happened, what was discussed at work, what he did at work, where he ate lunch at work etc... I am dying for conversation. Not that I REALLY care what he does at work, I mean I do, but you get what I am saying. You can tell the poor guy just wants to get changed, sit on the couch, catch up on shows he has missed and prob not talk to anyone until after dinner but I am an attention whore and I now understand why when we walk in the door the puggles will dance around, bring us their toys, sit right in front of us and stare at us uncomfortably until we cave in from guilt and roll around on the floor with them for a few minutes. I GET IT!!

So, folks, this is rest. I will embrace it and enjoy it. I will learn to make it work as long as it means my babies are doing well! Please do not fault me for writing pointless blogs every few days as it will help my boredom and most importantly sanity :)  As for the picture below, I am pretty sure if you saw me right now I would closely resemble this kitty. Hair has air dried into a frizz mess :)

Shannon!

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Lord give us strength....PLEASE!

 Hey there,

I am not going to lie when I say I have been on pins and needles for almost 17 weeks now. I knew jumping back into fertility and possibly getting pregnant again with twins would be very nerve wracking. In my mind, you just think, "don't worry what happened happened and you are in good hands now and the doctors know what they are doing." I am so thankful I have the doctors that I do now because I am about 100% sure nobody else could successfully get my babies here safely like Dr. Kofinas can.

I am asking for strength because today at our 16 week appt the nurse saw a polyp. The nurse phoned in our high risk doctor who was at the other location today and he was able to pull up our scan and observe everything. He asked if I had experienced any bleeding and luckily I have had no prior bleeding and that is a good thing. Usually, women don't find out they have a polyp until they start spotting. This is not a life threatening thing, but if this grows bigger it could trick the cervix into thinking something is happening resulting in preterm labor. I am to go back next week unless I experience bleeding and other symptoms and Dr. Kofinas himself will take another look. As a precautionary he may want to put in a cerclage so that the cervix doesn't open.

The nurse asked if I am currently working and luckily we had decided with this pregnancy the best thing to do would be to stay home and take it easy. In these situations they tell anyone who is working to go on disability and stay on bed rest. So, I am on modified bed rest until next week when we go back and if the cerclage is necessary it will be possible I will be on bed rest til the babies come.

Well, this wouldn't be a complete visit if I didn't start crying in the office so I did. The nurses reassured me that we are in the best hands and everything will be fine. I know that is what they are supposed to say, but all I keep thinking was the possibility of giving birth and having to watch two more babies die within arms reach again. Sorry, that was a morbid description, but that is what we had to do and I refuse to go through that again.  I ask God if he could just give me strength, patience and a more positive outlook that would be great. I haven't even googled yet what goes into getting a cerclage and I am possibly thinking of keeping it that way. Just the thought of them stitching my cervix scares the hell out of me. What happens if I tear through it? Can they put you to sleep when you are pregnant in order to put it in? ugh.  I know it will be the best thing for us, but it just sounds so painful! 

On a positive note, the babies were looking great and they are just so adorable. They are measuring 6oz each and very active.

So, again, please if you pray keep us in your prayers and if you don't just think about us and wish us the best!

Thank you all again for making it this far with us <3

Shannon and Mike

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