We knew since my cervix was dwindling it was only a matter of time and we were really really trying to exceed 32 weeks, but I guess 31 weeks 5 days will have to do. The middle of the night Wednesday morning the nurse kept coming in to check on me and I was barely able to sleep with my contractions. This was not new to me since I was contracting every day since 26 weeks. I did notice it hurt a little more than usual, but didn't really think too much of it. So, around 8am or so Wednesday morning I noticed a leak and then a gush and was scrambling to find my nurse call button. Honestly, I can't imagine breaking my water any where else. It was sooo much water!! and that was just one baby. What if I was in the car? bed? recliner? How do you clean that?? lol.
The nurses came in and I was shaking. I was in shock. Even though I was anticipating something happening soon, I was not expecting that much! The doctor wanted to wait a few hours because there are plenty of cases of women who break their water, but either don't contract or they are able to go days, weeks with a broken water. Mike and I were laughing to ourselves because we knew a cervix of less then 1 cm and non stop contractions it was only going to escalate from here. So, we waited a couple of hours and things got more intense so he checked me and I was indeed 2cm dilated and within the hour was in the OR. Epidural was not bad at all, but the csection itself was so weird. You feel everything just no pain. Very odd!! After all said and done the babies were out and screaming and i cried. The sound of their little cries were what I was dying to hear. They showed life...they showed me we got another chance. Nothing more beautiful!
When in recovery I was offered a new treatment for pain that is relatively new. It was a pain blocker they inject into your stomach on each side. I didn't ask any questions and was thinking, "well, hell, I get lovenox, heparin in the stomach must be like that." Nope!!, it's a 13 inch needle they go in with a sonogram guiding the needle. It wasn't very painful, just uncomfortable, but let me tell you I didn't feel a pain at all until like 20 hours later. If I can remember correclty it is called the Teplock Shots? I am prob very off, but in my fuzzy state thats what i THINK it's called...lol.
Seeing the babies were the most beautiful thing and scariest. I didn't know if I wanted to just burst into tears or scream in happiness that I had two beautiful boys in this world being taken care of. Ok, I am not going to lie, I cried. We saw Maddox first and i put my finger in to touch him and when i started to talk to him he started to wimper and cry and the fact that I couldn't pick him up to console him tore me up!! I felt so helpless :( We visited Mason after that and he was nice and calm with little wimpers here and there. All I can say is I am happy they will not remember this time in their lives.
The other most amazing and beautiful moment was seeing Mike with his boys <3. This man blows me away! He has been down there more than me bc i was having some issues with dizziness earlier and had to make sure I was stable and not going to black out so he was down their like three times already.
when he takes me down he goes over all the machines and what everything means and completely updates me all the medical jargon. With the lack of sleep I have and emotions of seeing them I couldnt tell you what machine they are hooked up to or what does what, but he is very good at breakign it down so I can understand everything at this point...lol. He has that purell in his hand and is a nazi when it comes to making sure I purell even after i touch my shirt, face, chair etc...lol. He is so funny! He is such a good daddy already and seeing him talk and touch the boys melts my heart so much!! <3
I have been lucky to start pumping already even though my milk has not come in. However, i am able to get a few drops here and there and they encourage bringing those little drops down just so they can give them that little bit. Hopefully, my milk comes in soon and we can get that liquid gold :)
Ok, I am done bragging about my beautiful new family and will get off now :) I guess this blog will just keep continuing. We blogged through infertility, pregnancy, loss, pregnancy and now will continue their stay at the nicu and then maybe I will turn this into "raising twin boys" as they get older.
Thank you again for all of your support <3
Shannon and Mike
Congrats shannon. Your going to be a wonderful mother
ReplyDeleteI think I did the same pain control do you have a pain button you get to push if anything hurts? I tried a new study with somthing in my stomach then i push a button for, I think, morphine. I was happy with it. Plus the head of the study was so cute. Lol. I have a present for you so when everything settles down ill drop it by your house. Good luck and get some rest.
ReplyDeleteIdk if this helps but the hand pump worked better for me to extract the milk.. take care :)